Guest Book - SANDS SA

Here you can read the contributions from parents and friends from all over the world
Feel free to add your own comments, thoughts or story for others to read. Add Here

Date: 2007-10-07 23:04:29

Name: Deb

Email:

Homepage:
URL:

Referred by: Search Engine
Location: Adelaide

Comments:

20 years ago this year-(1987)Back then there was nothing like this wonderful website.I battled alone in a small country town with my emotions.At 20 weeks my uterus ruptured.Due to a corneal pregnancy(very rare I was told at the time)And we lost our baby girl Amy Lee (though at that time classed as a miscarriage)which was awful she was fully developed just very small !!! I acually worked at the hospital so my life was saved by my co workers! Very luckily for us we already had had a son 3 years earlier from then to now he has been the joy of our lives.Its taken me all these years to pass these words in my head to print.As I now sit here very emotional I extend thoughts and prays of strength to you all.Time eases the pain but never the memories which we have the right to hold on to.

Date: 2007-09-27 15:41:43

Name: Karen Lynch

Email: karen.lynch@internode.on.net

Homepage:
URL:

Referred by: Just Surfed In
Location: Plympton Park

Comments:

My beautiful boy Travis would be 7 now. He was born asleep on 16th Feb 2000. I was 39 weeks pregnant. I have three other children now aged 6,4(5 next month),2(3 next month). Two girls and a boy. When I was in hospital being induced with Travis I could not imagine having any other children at all but as time passed by I knew that having children was my life. I took one pregnancy at a time and it was a very scary time for me and very stressful time for my family and friends. Other people forget very quickly about what you have been through and think oh well she has 3 other children now. My heart still bleeds but I know that one day I'll be with him again and also know that he is with us in spririt. Other mothers and fathers out there that have lost a child don't give up hope!

Date: 2007-09-17 14:42:09

Name: Joanne

Email:

Homepage: My Perfect Little Joshua
URL:

Referred by: Friend
Location: St Mary's

Comments:

My son Joshua was born 16/06/07 by emergency ceasarean at Calvary Hospital at 40 weeks and 5 days.
He looked perfect, beautiful, and was a perfect size and weight. But the cord was wrapped around his neck twice, he wasn't breathing and his heart wasn't beating, so they worked on him for a long time, and just before they were going to prenounce him stillborn, his heart started beating. He was intubated and transferred to Women's and Children's Hospital Neo Natal Intensive Care Unit. He fought on so bravely and we had him for another 4 days, until he quietly passed away in his mummy and daddys arms on 20/06/07.
My heart is completely broken. I had a fantastic, problem free pregnancy and your baby dying in hospital and not being able to bring him home to sleep in his room that we enjoyed decorating so much and were so excited about just doesn't even enter your head as a possibility.
Unless you have experienced this, you can not possibly understand the loss you feel. I know that all my family and friends love us and care and want to help, but having another baby will not bring Joshua back to us. It's been 3 months and every part of me still feels like I should have a baby to look after. I feel like I'm empty inside, but I also feel like I'm full of anger and unshed tears at the same time. I will never stop asking WHY ? But at the same time I know that we will never get an answer and will miss our beautiful son every day for the rest of our lives.
To all out there who have experienced the loss of a longed for and precious child, I do understand. I now want to honour my son and try to be as brave for him as he was for us.

Take care all, hope that we can all find some peace and cherish our little Angels memories forever.

Sleep peacefully my darling Joshy, I love you always.

Date: 2007-09-10 17:51:18

Name: sorey

Email: osobeige@yahoo.com

Homepage: angel
URL:

Referred by: Just Surfed In
Location: San Fransisco

Comments:

I think is great that. There's this kind of support I recently lost my daughter.

Date: 2007-07-10 21:14:19

Name: Maria

Email:

Homepage:
URL: http://www.freewebs.com/pregnancyloss-hope/

Referred by: Just Surfed In
Location: Adelaide

Comments:

Thinking of you all and your precious angels especially during Pregnancy & Infant Loss awareness month.

Date: 2007-07-03 03:55:53

Name: kerry k

Email:

Homepage:
URL:

Referred by: Search Engine
Location:

Comments:

A year and two weeks ago, I held breast feed and eternally loved my son Joshua who within two days was gone within seconds. He passed away from a heart condition and crashed suddenly without warning he was held by our five year old son who already loved his little brother and photographed by his grandmother. The aniversary of his birth and then three days later his death was undescribeable, I didnt know what to do except hurt. Then within one week of this I was told that the eight week pregnancy that I was scared and wanted, no longer had a heart beat, I would require a D & C we tried for months to achieve this miracle to again have it taken from us. within four more days I have now been told that I have and abnormal 'Uterus' and will probably never carry another child. I realise this sounds like a woe is me, however I dont know how I will cope. I am the luckiest person on this earth to have a loving five year old growing old with me and a precious son and the dream of a child I lost, yet going on is awful, I almost hated my Dr when he sat there and told me I may have to accept that I have one child, when he has eight children. Does any one feel misunderstood, people around me complain about money and I feel like screaming you have two healthy children and choose not to have anymore, I hope they never have to deal with real loss, money cant make you happy but love will every time.
To Jarrod and baby Joshua I love you precious and to all the other babies I should have held and cared for, love always mummy

Date: 2007-05-12 17:14:25

Name: melissa trott

Email: melzmiskanick@optusnet.com.au

Homepage:
URL:

Referred by: Search Engine
Location: Athelstone

Comments:

i loved reading all your stories, what a lovely site.October 21st 2006 we lost our son Bobby Hamilton, he was born sleeping at 26weeks, would like to here from other people who this experience has happened to.

Date: 2007-05-10 22:19:59

Name: Kylie

Email: enailme@hotmail.com

Homepage:
URL:

Referred by: Search Engine
Location: Adelaide

Comments:

I lost my daughter Jessica at 36 weeks gestation due to eclampsia.
My pregnancy was great, in fact i'd never felt better! I remember my friend telling me i looked a bit "puffy" but with my doctors reassurance, was told it was normal in later stages of pregnancy. On the 9th May 97 i woke to say goodbye to my husband as he left for work..thats the last thing i remember. I wasnt found until later that evening by my husband upon him returning.
I was flown to the Flinders medical centre and put straight on life support. My family was told that i wasnt expected live but they gave me a 20% chance of survival. If i did survive, id be severely brain damaged due to having seizures all day which caused my brain to hemmorage.
I gave birth to my daughter whilst still on life support and once i had began to breathe by myself and could comprehend somewhat of what had happened, i got to hold her. The nurse told my husband ( as if to make things better) that after she was born, they had to check her stats 3 times because she looked so perfect.
She looked perfect, she was perfect, she didnt look dead...just asleep. I remember willing her to breathe...just one breath... please!!!! but she never did.

I remember having an ultrasound 3 days before losing her and the nurse told us to wait as she needed to check with the doctor, she came back saying everything was fine and we could go. She never gave us a chance to see her on the screen. I have asked for the xrays...but apparently theres no record of me ever having an ultrasound on that particular day........

Jessica was my 3rd baby i had lost, the son before her was born at 26 weeks gestation due to polycystic kidneys and i had suffered a miscarriage at 8 weeks prior to him.

I was told not to have children after coming so close to losing my own life with Jessica, but the longing to have a baby was overwhelming. We tried again almost 3 months after losing Jessica because i felt if i didnt do it soon, i would never do it. I now have an 8 yr old daughter who is such a beautiful soul. Without her i dont know where i would be

Date: 2007-05-09 15:39:18

Name: sharon heath/ midwife

Email:

Homepage:
URL:

Referred by: Just Surfed In
Location: Adelaide

Comments:

to all the brave women who have submitted to the guest book i cannot even begin to understand your grieve and pain only wish that you all are beinging to heal without forgetting your babies that are all angels. i am a midwife and a mother may your dreams all come true. thinking of you all. thankyou for sharing your thoughts and inner secrets.

Date: 2007-04-04 15:02:18

Name: Michelle

Email: mcoone02@baker.edu

Homepage:
URL:

Referred by: Search Engine
Location: Michigan

Comments:

Emma was my little girl. She died and was taken from me. The hospital wouldn't even let me bury her. They threw her away with all the other medical waste. I wanted to see her and hold her but the nurses and doctor's put me to sleep and took her from my womb. I feel her every day and I know she is with me. Even though I never saw her I know she was beautiful.

I love you my little girl.
Sleep peacefully Angel.
Love Mommy

First Page | Previous Page | Next Page | Last Page

Guest book entries before 4th April 2007 can be found at our old guestbook here..